When will things get better???

Alot of things have occured and it completely ruined my summer, although my summer was already whacked out. Im tired of feeling the way Ive been feeling for the past 2 weeeks. I just want everyone to be happy, yet at the same time I want to be happy too. I noticed that I havent been acting normally. Ive been eating only twice a day and on top of that, I do plan things that I would want to do but i end up not doing anything at all. Im constantly feeling stressed out and weak; I hate the fact that I hurt people I love, but I want them to understand that I wasnt out to hurt them. They need to think about me and my happiness. THings arent the same anymore and I hate it. Im no longer a child, Im turning 19 in about 2 weeks. I understand i will always be a child in their eyes but Im not who i was when i was 5. Ive become older and a bit wiser (i hope lol). People say it takes time and im not exactly patient. Perhaps this experience is occurring to act asa test of lyalty hmm who knows? I just would like to see better days. I never meant to hurt anyone but honestly i felt like i did nothing wrong. I want us to heal.

I wanted to write so many things in my blog but i just never had a chance to. Hopefully i do write them before school starts!