Khmer New Years and Tae Yang's Wedding Dress and other updates.

So my mom left for Cambodia on Sunday, got there on Tuesday and called yesterday. I didnt get to pick up the phone though but from what I hear, she's having fun and thats all that matters. IT's nearly been a week since she left, and wow, i didnt realize how much i take her for granted when it comes to cooking,, doing the laundry, and all those house chores. I've been eating spam and rice or Kwago (Cambodian sausage) and rice nearly everyday LOL! Khmer New Years was this week, and this was the first time my brother and I went to buy fruits..we offered to so my dad can relax. I never realzied how hard it was to pick out the right fruits and on top of that we bought plaintains--instead of bananas so we couldnt put that on our altar for our ancestors. I blame my brother for pickin out the plaintains lmao. I felt like we could have put more fruits or other good food than what we had.

Two days ago, I was walking to my 8am class and me being the klutz that I am didnt look at where I was walking, tripped on the sidewalk and landed on my knees--the left knee landing first and the hardest landing, so that caused a big scrape on my left knee. It hurts so bad that I was limping for the past two days. My right knee wanst that bad. I went to find the campus nurse and she gave me a bunch of patches, ointment and packets of advil. It kinda helps? haha.

Spring semester is almost over and I needa get my act together. In addition,I didnt get into the nursing program at my school. After thinking this through, I decided to remain attending the current college that I'm at, but switching my major into Public Health(possibly focusing on nutrition) and then the accelrated nursing program that my school offers after graduation (its a 2 yr program w/ a BSN and an RN license). Time to get focused! The sad part is, because i failed anatomy 2 last semester, I have to retake it. WHat makes it sad is that its the same professor that I had last semester thats only offering the calss in the fall...and this guy picks on me when I never even did anything in that class. LOL joy.

Today I went to the Bronx to celebrate Khmer New Years. I didnt know what to expect, especially if I had to see certain people there that I didnt want to see.Oh, and I did; what an awkward situation that was. There's no reason to be fake and say hi to me, calling me "Chrisi"(primary nickname aside from "PIN" lol) when the last time we talked, we were beefing and this person addressed me as "christina". WHy youtryin to be fake for? Anyways, I held my composure well to say the least. WHy would i start drama on our holiday? Another thing that kidna irritated me was that everytime I go to these "bouns" (dunno how to explain it, but think of it as when you have a religious holiday you hold a special ceremony at the church or whatever religious building you have) or weddings, or any oter places full of Cambodians and all I ever see are these girls I dont know grilling me. LOL I jsut dont understand how can you stare down somebody you dont eve know. Idk, people are weird haha. It just boggles my mind.

I was listening to a remix of Tae Yang's song, "Wedding Dress" by Tommy C ft. JReyez and this song brought me to tears. It was pretty amazing, at least I think it was. You dont necessarily need to be in love to understand. But maybe if you are in love, it would make more sense to you. I'll provide the song jsut look below haha.This song inspires me to make a female version of this song and I have great ideas on what to write..sadly, I cant sing for sh*t and it would help alot if I did have that skill.

Well I'm getting sleepy and thats all I have for now. I'll also provide pics of today. See ya xoxo!



LOL idk whats up with my hair but I liek this pic of us



Sema and Jimmy kept me company lol !!



LOL looks like we kinda match!

i freakin realized...

that i have anger issues that needs to be resolved. i understand that im a sloppy person.i understand that i care about shit thta shouldnt matter. i understand that im such an attention whore that needs to tone down ..YESS! i freakin get it.now go mind your business.GOOD-DAY.

update...spring break!

It's been a while since my last entry because i've been so caught up with school this semester. Im glad to say that this semester is a little bit better than last, but im still struggling with getting into the nurisng program. Im at that point where im about to give up and jsut change my major into Bio(Public Health) so that i can graduate on time and not having to go thru all the B.S. I guess we'll see what happens. Everything else besides school has been alright i guess--there's really not much to say about it because school is honestly the only thing i've bee focusing on; i screwed up so badly last semester that im jsut trying to do better this time around. People have plans for spring break whereas I dont. All i want to do is just RELAX. I want to get back into wtriting poetry and continuing watching hana yori dango haha; I definitely need to stop by the salon and get my eyebrows done becuase i just miss having that shape i had before this one woman fucked it up a few months ago ugh. never again! Im finally glad that daylight savings time came thru becuase i do not like looking outside the window at 5 pm seeing that its dark out haha.

My mom is going to Cambodia with my grandmother next month and i have mixed feelings about that. Im going to miss her and miss her good cooking. But with her gone, i'm jsut going to learn how to have more household repsonsibilities..blahh. Yet, it can help me becuase i need to learn how to be more helpful around the house. Although I'm going to miss her, she deserves a vacation not only becuase she's a hardworking mother and has done nothing but housework at home, but its becuase shes the only one that hasnt been to Cambodia since she left it nearly 30 years ago. I'm really happy that she gets to go back there after 30 years; its definitely going to be really emotional for her. It's going to be a long month.

She's going to be leaving a few days before Khmer New Years, which is one of the reason that makes this upcoming Khmer New Years an interesting one. I'm going to be the one going to the stores that day buying fresh fruits and flowers, setting up the altar, which should be fun! Plus, at the end of new years, I look forward to wearing that other tradditonal outfit that my grandma brought over becuase of its slight flashiness. It's a purple lacey top with a bow on the side of my shoulder with an embedded center. Plus, I look forward to seeing my bf and bestie Jimmy! It might be awkward for him though, but whatever, the whole purpose is to celebrate new yrs, not to care about drama and beef. Of course, I know that category way too well since now its more than jsut one person I'm beefing with...okay i will shut up now becuase I dont want to be the one instigating sh*t.

People change, grow apart and that's that. It hurts to be in the same location as them, knowing that you were close---now, youre jsut strangers. But, I guess that's how it is; it's not my fualt that people dont know how to be repsectful.

I guess that's all the things that I wanted to say. Until next time, peace out :)

updates

I finally got the desired haircut I wanted nearly two tuesdays ago. It was exactly what i wanted...however, as for the peekaboo highlights lol...well my aunt didnt use the correct peroxide for the bleach with the correct level, so my hair turned out copper. This was friday. Hopefully tomororw, were going to try again and hopefully it turns out blonde. I will have a pic up as soon as everything is completed.

As of lately, there has been so many problems but we're taking it one step at a time. It doesnt help that I start school again this tuesday; but at least my schedule isnt as bad as last semester. I just hope the classes are easier. I need to be more focused. And as for the current stress Im having, I just hope that there will be a good outcome. I'm still trying to get over some things taht occurred last year, and cant afford for more worse things to come. 2010 is supposedly to be an optimistic and much better year, well lets hope for the best!

Im a little disappointed that for the past..couple of weeks that I have been on winter break, ive only went to the Bronx to see everyone only ONCE...which was yesterday. On top of that, I could have stayed an extra day but I had an on call shift at work, which i wasnt needed for. great. LOL. With that said, Im very grateful for the family, boyfriend and friends that I have in my life although there are times where I take them for granted. As for the people that cut me out of their life, im not mad nor do i care. Maybe its for the better. Thanks for the memories. It's jsut sad that fakeness had to be involved. I dont get people, but its all whatever. No need to continue the drama or make it worse by confrontation. It's time for me to grow up, and let it go. Im turning twenty this year, and I realized that I really need to grow up.

I'm hardly getting ANY hours at work and i just spent a sh*tload of money solely on books for school. I reached my limit on my credit card so I cnat use it for another month. FML. I need money :(

So Ive been hearing news about the earthquake in Haiti, and my heart goes out to every Haitian, whether in Haiti, or anywhere else and those who have loved ones there. What had happened unbelievable and I pray for the best. I hope to donate some money soon. Even if you hardly have any money, try to donate at least SOMETHING. I dont know how can anybody hear about the devastation and care less? The way I see it, its like if that were to happen in the motherland, it would be the worst thing to go thru, wondering how my loved ones are and the fact that the country's land is destroyed. I really do feel for Haitains right now, as well as anyone that has a loved one there.

I feel like I wasted my winter break but whats new? Hopefully I can write more blogs even during the semester. But until next time peace out :)

***Everythng seems choppy and disorganized but at least I made paragraphs for every new topic. seriously, its not even about how random it is; its just everything thats in my mind right now.

edit: 01/19/10

soo heres a pic of my haircut and my finished blonde peekaboos (its not the deisred blonde i want but its all good.